Life really should come with erasers - or a "do over" button. I'm sure there are tons of stuff that we all would like to erase, plenty of people we'd like to start over with again. I know I do. Sometimes those things keep me up at night. Do they hate me now? Why did I do that in the first place?? Should I just pretend nothing happened?? Nothing feels settled, should I just leave it be? It's especially hard when b-days roll around. There's something I want to do, but I don't want to feel like a sappy sucker either. So what I really want is a giant eraser - a selective one though - and I want to erase the past two years.
Know where I can get one??? :P
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Thursday, September 18, 2008
i can't think of a title....
So I'm going away for the weekend. I can't wait it's going to be such fun hanging out with the skanks and all my online friends. I'm going to try REALLY hard not to hide from cameras this time, cuz really, what does it matter?? Who am I really trying to impress?? So what if people see my pic and think snarky, ugly things - or even say them?? I am me and as long as I am happy with m e (which remains to be seen :P) that's all that matters....
right?????
right?????
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
the first ramble
While I was walking around barnes and noble today I came to a horrible realization. I am the ultimate cliche. I am the overweight, married with two children, working, romance novel reading, unsatisfied woman in her late 30s. I'm not sure how I ended up here..... I really don't. It's like you wake up one morning and you're no longer cool. No matter what I still think - I'm NOT 25 any more. I'm almost 37, and it really did just sneak up on me. When I look in the mirror I don't see me as I am. I see pictures of myself, or catch glimpses in a window, and I'm completely stunned because that is not what I see in the mirror. I'd like to tell myself that all of that doesn't matter - that I don't need to feel self-conscious of my weight, or my age, or my wrinkles, or how old I look at the end of the day. I'd like to tell myself that as long as I like myself it doesn't matter how the world sees me. That if I think I'm pretty, I'm beautiful. That if I think I'm fascinating, that I'm brilliant. That I think I'm a good mom, wife, employee, and person - and I actually believe it and it's true.
hmmm maybe I'll work on that tomorrow ;)
hmmm maybe I'll work on that tomorrow ;)
I can't believe it's been a year
so it's been a year since I've written on this... hopefully by this time no one knows it's here cuz really who's gonna want to read me whining and bitching a spewing my depressive, melancholy bullshit??? lol This is in lieu of therapy since I can't seem to get the time to go...
god help you if you end up reading this LOLOLOL
god help you if you end up reading this LOLOLOL
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
it's that timeof the year
So it has happened.... my three months of work related freedom are over. I have to go back to work (i.e. school). The sad thing is... all I want to do is read "Dark Possession" by Christine Feehan. :) But I really do think it's best for all of those around me if I have something else to occupy my brain with too. Boredom brings on so many issues...
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Carressed by Ice book review - woo hoo
I won an ARC of Nalini Singh's Caressed by Ice and I've got to say I loved it!! Here's my review which I'm sure does not do it justice!
“Caressed by Ice” is Nalini Singh’s third installment in her captivating Psy/Changeling series, and continues the saga of the shape-shifting changelings and their nemeses, the Psy. In “Caressed”, Judd Lauren is the mysterious Psy refugee who has been hiding with his family amongst the Changeling Wolf SnowDancer Pack, though he realizes he can never fully fit into their world. No one in the changeling world knows exactly who or what Judd Laurens was when he was in the Psy Net, but everyone knows that he can be very dangerous. While the SnowDancers tolerate his presence in their pack, he is very aware that his Psy status and their questions about his abilities makes him far from trustworthy in their eyes. Judd struggles to keep his family outside of the Psy Council’s radar and tries to find a place to fit within the pack. At the same time, he continues working with underground Psy forces against the same council who provided his deadly training.
Brenna Kincaid is an energetic and talented SnowDancer who was kidnapped by a Psy council member and psychically traumatized. As she continues on a journey of healing and comes to terms with the changes resulting from the attack, she finds herself increasingly comforted and attracted to Judd’s presence in her life. For Judd, Brenna threatens to awaken feelings that he has not only spent a lifetime suppressing, but believes will be dangerous if allowed to be unleashed. Judd and Brenna find themselves struggling to define and work out their relationship while the conflict between the Psy and the Changeling escalates. The pack also begins to believe there is a spy within their midst.
Ever since I first read about Judd, I’ve been anxiously awaiting his story. My wait was well rewarded! I found the book captivating, exciting, and intriguing. In "Caressed by Ice" Nalini Singh does a wonderful job of including us in Judd and Brenna's world as they struggle to both find a traitor in their midst, and come to terms with who they are, who they’ve become, and what they mean to one another. Judd breaks your heart as he struggles to balance his need for Brenna and what he perceives as his need to protect others from his gift. He truly believes that he will be alone in the world and that there is no hope to end that. Brenna demonstrates unwavering bravery in fighting to heal from her traumatic kidnapping and fighting to make Judd her own. Once the issues preventing them from being together are resolved, the heat between Judd and Brenna is scorching!
As with her other books, Ms. Singh did a wonderful job creating a mystery within a mystery, and an extremely touching romance at the same time. You’re also introduced to the “ghost” and his/her revolutionary activities within the Psy Net in the story, and are also provided with lots of juicy hints about the fates of other characters. All and all, this book is an excellent read and I would recommend it wholeheartedly!!! I can’t wait for the next one!
“Caressed by Ice” is Nalini Singh’s third installment in her captivating Psy/Changeling series, and continues the saga of the shape-shifting changelings and their nemeses, the Psy. In “Caressed”, Judd Lauren is the mysterious Psy refugee who has been hiding with his family amongst the Changeling Wolf SnowDancer Pack, though he realizes he can never fully fit into their world. No one in the changeling world knows exactly who or what Judd Laurens was when he was in the Psy Net, but everyone knows that he can be very dangerous. While the SnowDancers tolerate his presence in their pack, he is very aware that his Psy status and their questions about his abilities makes him far from trustworthy in their eyes. Judd struggles to keep his family outside of the Psy Council’s radar and tries to find a place to fit within the pack. At the same time, he continues working with underground Psy forces against the same council who provided his deadly training.
Brenna Kincaid is an energetic and talented SnowDancer who was kidnapped by a Psy council member and psychically traumatized. As she continues on a journey of healing and comes to terms with the changes resulting from the attack, she finds herself increasingly comforted and attracted to Judd’s presence in her life. For Judd, Brenna threatens to awaken feelings that he has not only spent a lifetime suppressing, but believes will be dangerous if allowed to be unleashed. Judd and Brenna find themselves struggling to define and work out their relationship while the conflict between the Psy and the Changeling escalates. The pack also begins to believe there is a spy within their midst.
Ever since I first read about Judd, I’ve been anxiously awaiting his story. My wait was well rewarded! I found the book captivating, exciting, and intriguing. In "Caressed by Ice" Nalini Singh does a wonderful job of including us in Judd and Brenna's world as they struggle to both find a traitor in their midst, and come to terms with who they are, who they’ve become, and what they mean to one another. Judd breaks your heart as he struggles to balance his need for Brenna and what he perceives as his need to protect others from his gift. He truly believes that he will be alone in the world and that there is no hope to end that. Brenna demonstrates unwavering bravery in fighting to heal from her traumatic kidnapping and fighting to make Judd her own. Once the issues preventing them from being together are resolved, the heat between Judd and Brenna is scorching!
As with her other books, Ms. Singh did a wonderful job creating a mystery within a mystery, and an extremely touching romance at the same time. You’re also introduced to the “ghost” and his/her revolutionary activities within the Psy Net in the story, and are also provided with lots of juicy hints about the fates of other characters. All and all, this book is an excellent read and I would recommend it wholeheartedly!!! I can’t wait for the next one!
Thursday, July 19, 2007
a second attempt
Well look I've actually posted again. I'm currently obsessed with Harry Potter and eagerly awaiting the book to come out on Saturday! I'm not sure my inability to be patient about these things is going to make it.....
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